Now and Then

This is going to be more of a "Who I Am" post. This may not interest you and that is OK. There will soon be a post on cooking again. Who I am now, is not who I was 30 years ago, 20 years ago, 10 years ago or even last year. They say that people change every 5 years, I say at the maximum, 5 years. Friends, lovers and even husbands have come and gone. I will cherish every minute I have had with all of them. I have always loved and trusted people (some say to a fault). I have been hurt and have hurt but have learned. I like to call myself a Free Bird. Nobody can hold me but my kids.

My Twenties: I had a best friend that I could not live without. She had a bright red Fiat convertible that we went everywhere in. We did everything we shouldn't have. We drank more then I can even fathom now, we did more drugs then I ever knew existed,there were lovers and plenty of them, we got ourselves in situations where we were lucky to come out alive. We would come home at 4:00 or 5:00 in the morning, pass out at her house and listen to her mom come in the next day and complain the room smelled like a brewery. Nothing could hurt us. Come on, we were children of the 70's and 80's, what did you expect?

And then I married and had Alexia. She pushed me into shape and quickly. With a plethora of health issues I had no choice but to grow up and become responsible. This life lasted most of my twenties and early thirties. My marriage lasted about 2 years and I was back in Sacramento before you knew it. My Thirties: The end of my twenties and early thirties was a lot of the same fast lifestyle but not to such an extreme. I met my second husband and had my son, Aden. Aden was born when I was thirty five. I was married for 12-13 years and in January 2011, it was time to move on....again. Maybe it seems selfish to you but to me it made me realize that I can never be tied down....ever. So here I am in my......well you do the math......sitting in my own house, with my own little community, with my new found job (and a new community) and school. Quite content I have to say. Ridiculously happy.

Bye bye, baby, it's been a sweet love, yeah, yeah Though this feeling I can't change But please don't take it so badly 'Cause Lord knows I'm to blame